#HaPpYNewYeAr

It hardly matters if i write or not, here, as no one has interest in reading it. Still when the whole world celebrate the Jan 1st, Why not me !!


And about the resolution thing I'm taking an initiative or I can say challenging myself with 52 novels in 52 weeks of this year. I hope I'll be able to do this task in desciplined way.

BEST WISHES !!!!!

and don't forget to smile always because life is too short to wait for the right time. :)

My first song -- #nayisi baat

https://soundcloud.com/lekhram-meena/nayi-si-baat-hai

#placed TATApowerDDL

People says "Believe in yourself
& Success will find your way."

But what i know "Never quit day dreams,
 b'coz some days are meant to be your day"

Potrait of a lady

A beauty with smile, resplendent in grace,
such beautiful eyes, in a beautiful face.

Inevitable truth

Sometimes life is like an orchestral prelude

And the other time it is strangely subdued

 If you keep recalling how life used to be

 With a perspective how much it's worthy

And cling to a wish to feel it all again

 It'll never change and always remains the same

Will have to face the reality with all it's cruelty

As you're unaware and obscured with it's beauty

Once you raged upon the futility of all

Now can't control and the teardrops fall

But life goes on and once gone is gone

And you'll have to regret it if you keep waiting for an impossible dawn 

She is long gone

Her smiling face always fresh like morning

in the corridor, still I hear her voice singing

 In garden, I see her in flowers of tulips

 recalling the way she used to call me stupid 

Emotions erupting but i'm trying to swallow

and embracing her fluffy soft pillow 

whose core still secrets her scent 

lost in the memories that we spent 

now the doves are exhausted of mournful call 

but i'm still staring at pictures hanging on the wall 

she is long gone but i don't want to accept the fact

 because every single memory of her is still pure and intact

Still she smiles....

Her past has been trodden & broken

Could find the truth in a single word spoken

Living with the bitter & twisted lies

Still she smiles

Had lived a discriminated life

Always she was the one with limited choice

Have been trying to spring high like a tide

Still she smiles

Slowly her youth will slip away & trickle

Certainly she would be old with the wrinkles

Might even loose sight of her eyes

Still she smiles

Dare to dream & fly high in the sky

She is one i can call catcher in the rye

Though no one ever heard her silent cries

Still she smiles

Her sassiness is disguised by many

But she is happy with apricot dipped in honey

Scattered believes stops her to rise

Still she smiles

She might be an unfledged sparrow

Still she earned her pride & never borrow

With her soft hands ,you might not be surprised

Still she smiles

Leaving behind nights of terror and fears

She kept walking & swiping away all the tears

People wish to see bowed head and lowered eyes

Still she smiles

I'm not a sex toy...i too want to live a normal life

Every night here is same as the day before

Some shitty men will come to have choice of whore

Likewise my pride is diminished as i also sell them lust

But deep inside me my feelings are full of disgust

I have lost the count  of those pimping jerks

Who came to me to full fill their sex thrust

In the beginning,i suffered the resistance and pain

No one came to help,so sobbing & crying was in vain

Broken, bruised & sore between my legs everytime

Why i was punished,if i haven't done any crime

Now its easier to deal with their ways and amusement

I'm treated as a thing, owned & used for one night rent

Like a cursed outcast everyone avoid me

I don't remember childhood dreams, what i wanted to be

But my woes can be eliminated if treated well

I could live normal life out of this hell if you help

My angel,my daughter

When she came to my life it was filled with joy and pleasure,
Every moment after that has been like most precious treasure
Adorable face with tiny hands, feet & knees
Slowly learning to bounce, play, cuddle & squeeze
Her cute expressions with messy hairs
& her beautiful eyes are like pearl's pairs
Those chubby little cheeks with pointy chin
Feeling of calmness in touch of her soft silky skin
She loves to sleep with my hand tucked under her head
Snuggled around my arms, I love the way she say goodnight dad
Her unfledged voice filled with everlasting laughter
I feel blessed whenever I hold my angel,  my daughter

Strangers

So many pleasant faces we encounter every day
Awkward smiles or have a good day, we might say
Doesn't have to know from where & how are they
Just a few brief moments & then we walk on our own way
Small exchanges with strangers, different kind of pleasure
These random talks sometimes results in finding a treasure
We acquaint them once or twice or sometimes more
Couldn't remember all but some have impacts for sure
Even the best friend now was also a stranger once
But we laughed ,cried ,fight ,celebrated ,taught each other & also learned
Living & dying among the strangers is our destiny
Strange it is but I love being stranger & accept it as my identity

Dazzling evening

A shimmering gracious crimson evening fading away

& proud pleasant sunset marks the end of the day

A warm luscious tint glowing earth and sky

Into the dawn over the pines as the birds fly

This lucid dream dazzles my wondering eyes

With every blink, flattered, as the water rise

Those leaping tides, advancing, laps the unconscious shore

& the mystical song of nightingale catches everyone's 

attention for sure

With my face upraised i felt my every breath

Enjoying the soothing & magical touch of that breeze

Slowly eyes glistened by the full-orbed moonlight

Calmness of these moment are delightful invite

delusory pleasures

  

Passionate by the charisma of glittering world

Deep emotions of own soul left unheard

Unaware of the rusted layers covering their character

Following the trends of society is only thing that matters

Distracted & dishonoured in the race without destination

Even forgotten the moral values & life's lessons

Searching for the unsure delusory pleasures

Surrounded with material things is the only measure

Deep sense of belongingness for self is lost

Winning in a hassle at any coat matters the most

But at the end, when find out that they had lived a wasteful life

They could have been anyone because they had every choice

A friend's advice

20 years back we were about same height

I travelled around world but he stood there firm & tight 

Slowly we grew young & strong

Couldn't find a place where i belong 

Today when i rest under his shade

Recollecting the memories that once start to fade

Lost in fast paced with a greed for money

Even forgotten my life's symphony 

Suddenly i heard the familiar whispers of a friend 

That the past is gone & nothing can be mend

I may not  be knowing the names of places you have been

But I'm telling you all this from the experience of world i have seen 

Love the life for what you were & live the one you want to

If you had a bad phase than start a fresh & new

Dragonfly....

Instantaneous & quick with fragile beauty

Always alert, some says they're witty

Consummated with flickering wings

No one knows what they say or sings

Swift beyond calculation or capture

You will find them in mountains, rivers & pasture

Light touches them only to shift into iridescence

Even the strong wind can't be a resistance

Beat their wings to the sounds of the butterflies

Never praised or noticed, they're the dragonflies

Transparent wings, yet another mirror through the sky

Not even wait for the blink & again they fly

REFLECTIONS.....

The daylight has grown weaker and the cloudy grey hue spreading over that vast sea. With the fainted sound of rhythmic chiming of church bells, the wind weeping away the piled leaves. The splashes of water on the rocks, churning, waves talking themselves as they rise and fall. Was it the sea crying with its inevitable pain or singing in top of his voice, the songs of joy, pride, war and peace.

She has been coming here daily from her childhood days watching its calmness and also disturbed, like as it is today.

Dusk has fallen and the birds returning to their homes. Some of the birds from the other side of the sea look confident while they flew in the opposite direction towards the horizon and she kept watching them until they disappeared of her side. A strange feeling of lost came alive in her mind but that cold breeze soothing with its gentle smiles and the magical whispers that contain the stories and song, the fishermen sing while he is out for his adventure to company this lonely sea make her relieved. Though she couldn’t stop that tear in her eyes, sliding down her cheek and she didn’t even bother to swipe it away. 

End of vast emptiness

Magnificent! Sounds one hear in quiet

In depth of darkness, if you’ll but listen

Things once seemed wrong will be right

Just a moment with self will give all the reason

Tiniest of quiver can be seen here

If capable eyes will learn to blind hate

Breathe & try not to hold that moment there

Will help you out of your perpetual state

Realization among vast emptiness

Taught the one to accept all the trails

Fear of the death & storms doesn’t bother much

As the trust in self-encourage him to sail.

 Magnificent! Sounds one heat in quiet

In depth of darkness, if you’ll but listen

Thins once seemed wrong will be right

Just a moment with self will give all the reason

Tiniest of quiver can be seen here

If capable eyes will learn to blind hate

Breathe & try not to hold that moment there

Will help you out of your perpetual state

Realization among vast emptiness

Taught the one to accept all the trails

Fear of the death & storms doesn’t bother much

As the trust in self-encourage him to sail.

quietness to her disturbed mind

Lost in thoughts
As she crosses
& smell the moist smell of new ploughed earth
Helped her to overcome that pain in her heart
With the naive assumption that things can only get better
She is trying to glue the pieces once shattered
Red glow at the rim of world faded into pink
Likewise it's the past,she doesn't want to think
Watching the tall pine trees touching the pastel sky
She has courage again to fly high 
Though shadowy dimness crept over the countryside
But she kept walking with confidence & pride
Because it's only her that she was always trying to find 
& this thought brought quiet to her disturbed mind

pain of an ocean

Deep from its heart 

The inevitable pain rises along the frosty tide

With no limits & boundaries 

It tries to the open shores into the wide

Splashing & roaring it comes

& end up in the melting silence 

With the tears & grieves 

Remains trapped in that big old island 

At the journeys end

The dying waves lift to kiss the shore

Spills its life upon the sand

Then shrinks to rise no more

Only the crimson sky shares its pain

When they meet at the zenith 

Lost in the melodies of self,the ocean remains 

Still by holding his deep breath

This is life

It takes much to make a child into a young

The one who know nothing learn to sing the song

It's amazing how they learn to walk on little feet

Growing up he get to about manner & way to greet

A child comes with pure soul and no memories

Day after day they become the part of new stories

Certainly they saw the things which are good and bad

With feelings of being happy, victory,lost & sad

They fall in love & break the rules knowingly

They learn about the dreams, career & goals certainly

Though the ultimate end is same,death, just come in different ways

 it's what we know as life, sum of all those random days

Strange relationship

With the wondrous embodiment of everything that you share

We can be best friend forever bound by pinky swear

The strange relationship with all

Boundation of time & distance

I just have to close my eyes to feel

Your presence & smell your fragrance

Those pictures of you, keeps you always in my mind

Words just flowing in rhythm, I don’t have to think or find

Bridging the divide between reality & my fantasy

I want you to dance with me close together in intimacy

That beguiling smile your curving lips drew

A gorgeous face with immense inner beauty as I knew

I may not have heard your voice

But I can feel your whispers

And the random thoughts of you

Makes my body shivers

We both are bit careless & too young

So just be with me & I’ll keep writing new songs

p.s. 

i miss you dear

My little sister

My little sister

I know we argue, I know we fight

Sometimes I’m wrong, sometimes I’m right

We call each other by names & play lots of games

Sometimes we disagree, make mistakes & put on the blames

We’re critics for each other & also the encouragement

We have everlasting memories without any order of arrangement

We cry on each other when our hearts will not mend

We’re proud of each other’s victories & we’re best friend

Our lives are now hectic & time goes by so fast

But I know our friendship will always outlast

I always wanted to tell you what has been on my mind

You are my sister, my friend, we are two of a kind !

The Woman

She is the one with soft & gentle touch

But always have to bear the burdens more than much

She is the one with all the vividness & beauty

The one who take all the responsibility & duty

She is one who hides her pain & tear

Without demanding, she’ll soothe you with care

She is the one who sacrifice the desires & dreams

Even in the suffering she’ll love you by all means

She’ll stay up all night just to ensure you can sleep well

She makes the earth a better place to live otherwise it would be hell

She has no magic but makes our life wonderful

Even in the complexities, with her you’ll still find it colorful

She can be a mother, sister, a friend or any one

But she is one & only, The Woman

MY WORK

My work is to write

Not to wait for someone to criticize

My work is to dream

& words of mine will make them gleam

My work is to see

& my eyes will tell me whatever it would be

My work is to listen

Even the tiny voices without any reason

My work is to draw

& no need to follow the newton’s law

My work is to feel

The touch of nature with its peal

My work is to say

As the thoughts crossing my mind in random way

My work is to observe

& walk across my mind’s gentle curves

My work is to smile

& the world would be happy for a while

My work is to do

Without caring if sky is dark or blue

All I need to do is nothing

Which I know will result in something

life is a circle

Every second I feel my eyes blinking

& my heartbeats trying to beat with perfect rhyming

Every minute my mind figuring out the meaning of everything it sees

& some time it wishes for everything become still & freeze

Every hour I see thousands of colours, even if I’m in sleep

& that’s why I feel like crazy, sad, happy or lost in thoughts deep

Everyday i watch the sun rising in the east

& meeting the horizon again in the west

Every week I change my goals & take them to new level

& fantasizing about life after success, easy & stable

Every month I calculate what I have done

& making the list which I did wrong

Every year i see the seasons, they just come & go

& the life always walking towards the death as we know

Life is all about moving in circle & one day we’ll meet the end

So just enjoy whatever you have, knock, breathe, shine & seek to mend

Like a.....

SMILE JUST FOR A SMILE

Magic of Pandora's box is not working

It has been a month & I don’t know why this thought keep coming in to my mind that I have been doing something very wrong?

I don’t know what wrong I’m doing but this feeling is really killing me. Because what I’m supposed to do is not what I’m doing so I’m totally freaked out of mind guy who certainly is making his life difficult to live.

The more I think about it the more I want to get away from people & the place I’m connected to because the magic of Pandora’s box is not working for me.

This is so ridiculous that I can’t even help me.

The guy who is funny, creative & not so handsome for other is living a miserable life, not concerned about the present which is so crucial & his condition is getting more critical as the clock is continuously ticking.By the time he would know it, it might be too late to realise all this so basically this is all f***ed  up for him

I hope he(me!!) will get my point after reading this. “MAN YOU NEED TO CHANGE THE WAY YOU LIVE & FOCUS ON THE RIGHT THINGS IN YOUR LIFE, BECAUSE IF YOU WILL NOT DO IT NOW YOU WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOURSELF & LET ME TELL YOU ONE MORE THING THAT WHAT OTHERS GONNA DO, IT CAN BE TWO THINGS EITHER THEY GONNA CONSOULE YOU & FEEL SORRY OR THEY MIGHT TELL YOU IT WAS ALL YOUR FAULT, BUT THE TRUTH IS THEY DON’T CARE”

I just want to be with you

My heart have feelings but never want to show

but the day I saw you, every thing changed I know

now i love the winters & wait for the spring

living a life without knowing what else it could bring

every time i look into your eyes

i feel my body melting like ice

each word you say make me love you more

every word of my poems want to adore

we'll dance on the melodies in the rains

travel the world without knowing the trains

night and day, day and night I wanna be by your side

every moment of everyday you are always on my mind

so just hold me tight near to your heart

And promise me that we will never be apart

Everyone has their own ways of expression..... :)

I just want her back

Once she used to blossom like a rose
but now an inner demon in her has arose
The feeling like turmoil, angst, and passion have overcome
living in perpetual state of guilt though nothing she have done
New persona coming to terms with a new sinful she
behaving as she is no longer the girl, she used to be
Why she always let them do what that demon want to
every little bit makes her feel as the emptiness subsides
Why she have been hiding the true self & grasping for reality?
& girl with a cute smile now living life for formality
I can't seem to stop it but i want to help her
& the only thing which can tell her truth is mirror
This demon springs up and devours her conscience thought
& she can't even see how beautiful life she has got
I just want to let her know that
She isn't bound to the chase another tear stream
because she can always live like as she lives in my dreams

I just want her back

Out of inner shell of herself, lively & smiling

A beautiful dove..

We're talking like we know each other for years

As if i said some magic word & you had appeared

Laughing & dancing we started this journey

Something we shared & something we are learning

Through your velvet eyes, your soul revealed

I felt like your past wounds are still to be healed

Your talks reflects your heart's sweetness

Your smile doubles your face cuteness

For me you are like a beautiful dove

The girl, who will treat me with a strange love

I want to you to get over from the tensions of past clouds

Lift your head, smile & do something to be proud

So just hold my hand & I'll take you to my wonderland

There is no rule to follow & to understand....

just scribbling...;)

How important she is for me

She is the mirror to me

Through her a clear reflection of myself  i could see

I feel conceited to share my little part 

Where i don't have to remember about the end or start

Similar thoughts that only we can understand 

& the friendship is strange but shines like an elegant brand 

We are differentiated in appearance & the places

But i can find her even from the thousand faces

How adorable she is,you might think 

Her beauty growing with every blink 

Her mind so active yet silent 

Her expressions so colorful and vibrant 

Now you know how important she is for me

As for all my wonderful creativity she is the key