I'm not a sex toy...i too want to live a normal life

Every night here is same as the day before

Some shitty men will come to have choice of whore

Likewise my pride is diminished as i also sell them lust

But deep inside me my feelings are full of disgust

I have lost the count  of those pimping jerks

Who came to me to full fill their sex thrust

In the beginning,i suffered the resistance and pain

No one came to help,so sobbing & crying was in vain

Broken, bruised & sore between my legs everytime

Why i was punished,if i haven't done any crime

Now its easier to deal with their ways and amusement

I'm treated as a thing, owned & used for one night rent

Like a cursed outcast everyone avoid me

I don't remember childhood dreams, what i wanted to be

But my woes can be eliminated if treated well

I could live normal life out of this hell if you help

My angel,my daughter

When she came to my life it was filled with joy and pleasure,
Every moment after that has been like most precious treasure
Adorable face with tiny hands, feet & knees
Slowly learning to bounce, play, cuddle & squeeze
Her cute expressions with messy hairs
& her beautiful eyes are like pearl's pairs
Those chubby little cheeks with pointy chin
Feeling of calmness in touch of her soft silky skin
She loves to sleep with my hand tucked under her head
Snuggled around my arms, I love the way she say goodnight dad
Her unfledged voice filled with everlasting laughter
I feel blessed whenever I hold my angel,  my daughter

Strangers

So many pleasant faces we encounter every day
Awkward smiles or have a good day, we might say
Doesn't have to know from where & how are they
Just a few brief moments & then we walk on our own way
Small exchanges with strangers, different kind of pleasure
These random talks sometimes results in finding a treasure
We acquaint them once or twice or sometimes more
Couldn't remember all but some have impacts for sure
Even the best friend now was also a stranger once
But we laughed ,cried ,fight ,celebrated ,taught each other & also learned
Living & dying among the strangers is our destiny
Strange it is but I love being stranger & accept it as my identity

Dazzling evening

A shimmering gracious crimson evening fading away

& proud pleasant sunset marks the end of the day

A warm luscious tint glowing earth and sky

Into the dawn over the pines as the birds fly

This lucid dream dazzles my wondering eyes

With every blink, flattered, as the water rise

Those leaping tides, advancing, laps the unconscious shore

& the mystical song of nightingale catches everyone's 

attention for sure

With my face upraised i felt my every breath

Enjoying the soothing & magical touch of that breeze

Slowly eyes glistened by the full-orbed moonlight

Calmness of these moment are delightful invite

delusory pleasures

  

Passionate by the charisma of glittering world

Deep emotions of own soul left unheard

Unaware of the rusted layers covering their character

Following the trends of society is only thing that matters

Distracted & dishonoured in the race without destination

Even forgotten the moral values & life's lessons

Searching for the unsure delusory pleasures

Surrounded with material things is the only measure

Deep sense of belongingness for self is lost

Winning in a hassle at any coat matters the most

But at the end, when find out that they had lived a wasteful life

They could have been anyone because they had every choice

A friend's advice

20 years back we were about same height

I travelled around world but he stood there firm & tight 

Slowly we grew young & strong

Couldn't find a place where i belong 

Today when i rest under his shade

Recollecting the memories that once start to fade

Lost in fast paced with a greed for money

Even forgotten my life's symphony 

Suddenly i heard the familiar whispers of a friend 

That the past is gone & nothing can be mend

I may not  be knowing the names of places you have been

But I'm telling you all this from the experience of world i have seen 

Love the life for what you were & live the one you want to

If you had a bad phase than start a fresh & new

Dragonfly....

Instantaneous & quick with fragile beauty

Always alert, some says they're witty

Consummated with flickering wings

No one knows what they say or sings

Swift beyond calculation or capture

You will find them in mountains, rivers & pasture

Light touches them only to shift into iridescence

Even the strong wind can't be a resistance

Beat their wings to the sounds of the butterflies

Never praised or noticed, they're the dragonflies

Transparent wings, yet another mirror through the sky

Not even wait for the blink & again they fly

REFLECTIONS.....

The daylight has grown weaker and the cloudy grey hue spreading over that vast sea. With the fainted sound of rhythmic chiming of church bells, the wind weeping away the piled leaves. The splashes of water on the rocks, churning, waves talking themselves as they rise and fall. Was it the sea crying with its inevitable pain or singing in top of his voice, the songs of joy, pride, war and peace.

She has been coming here daily from her childhood days watching its calmness and also disturbed, like as it is today.

Dusk has fallen and the birds returning to their homes. Some of the birds from the other side of the sea look confident while they flew in the opposite direction towards the horizon and she kept watching them until they disappeared of her side. A strange feeling of lost came alive in her mind but that cold breeze soothing with its gentle smiles and the magical whispers that contain the stories and song, the fishermen sing while he is out for his adventure to company this lonely sea make her relieved. Though she couldn’t stop that tear in her eyes, sliding down her cheek and she didn’t even bother to swipe it away. 

End of vast emptiness

Magnificent! Sounds one hear in quiet

In depth of darkness, if you’ll but listen

Things once seemed wrong will be right

Just a moment with self will give all the reason

Tiniest of quiver can be seen here

If capable eyes will learn to blind hate

Breathe & try not to hold that moment there

Will help you out of your perpetual state

Realization among vast emptiness

Taught the one to accept all the trails

Fear of the death & storms doesn’t bother much

As the trust in self-encourage him to sail.

 Magnificent! Sounds one heat in quiet

In depth of darkness, if you’ll but listen

Thins once seemed wrong will be right

Just a moment with self will give all the reason

Tiniest of quiver can be seen here

If capable eyes will learn to blind hate

Breathe & try not to hold that moment there

Will help you out of your perpetual state

Realization among vast emptiness

Taught the one to accept all the trails

Fear of the death & storms doesn’t bother much

As the trust in self-encourage him to sail.

quietness to her disturbed mind

Lost in thoughts
As she crosses
& smell the moist smell of new ploughed earth
Helped her to overcome that pain in her heart
With the naive assumption that things can only get better
She is trying to glue the pieces once shattered
Red glow at the rim of world faded into pink
Likewise it's the past,she doesn't want to think
Watching the tall pine trees touching the pastel sky
She has courage again to fly high 
Though shadowy dimness crept over the countryside
But she kept walking with confidence & pride
Because it's only her that she was always trying to find 
& this thought brought quiet to her disturbed mind

pain of an ocean

Deep from its heart 

The inevitable pain rises along the frosty tide

With no limits & boundaries 

It tries to the open shores into the wide

Splashing & roaring it comes

& end up in the melting silence 

With the tears & grieves 

Remains trapped in that big old island 

At the journeys end

The dying waves lift to kiss the shore

Spills its life upon the sand

Then shrinks to rise no more

Only the crimson sky shares its pain

When they meet at the zenith 

Lost in the melodies of self,the ocean remains 

Still by holding his deep breath

This is life

It takes much to make a child into a young

The one who know nothing learn to sing the song

It's amazing how they learn to walk on little feet

Growing up he get to about manner & way to greet

A child comes with pure soul and no memories

Day after day they become the part of new stories

Certainly they saw the things which are good and bad

With feelings of being happy, victory,lost & sad

They fall in love & break the rules knowingly

They learn about the dreams, career & goals certainly

Though the ultimate end is same,death, just come in different ways

 it's what we know as life, sum of all those random days

Strange relationship

With the wondrous embodiment of everything that you share

We can be best friend forever bound by pinky swear

The strange relationship with all

Boundation of time & distance

I just have to close my eyes to feel

Your presence & smell your fragrance

Those pictures of you, keeps you always in my mind

Words just flowing in rhythm, I don’t have to think or find

Bridging the divide between reality & my fantasy

I want you to dance with me close together in intimacy

That beguiling smile your curving lips drew

A gorgeous face with immense inner beauty as I knew

I may not have heard your voice

But I can feel your whispers

And the random thoughts of you

Makes my body shivers

We both are bit careless & too young

So just be with me & I’ll keep writing new songs

p.s. 

i miss you dear